Monday, 25 July 2011

Day 55- Indulgence

Sorry I have been a bit blogless lately. Thanks for my comments, was slightly hibernating this week and my mind hasn't been as focussed on PCP as I would have liked.

When I got the Indulgence email, I turned into a zombie, I don't think I even finished reading the rest of the email I just got up walked to the shops and got a packet of Banston Pickle flavoured Mini Cheddars. My god they were good, I had a small chocolate bar too. I sat in my car and ate them really fast. Then felt dirty and sick! It was all a rather seedy afair. It still felt like it was wrong even though were had permission to do it.

I felt annoyed with myself for just getting it done right away and not saving it for a nice meal of spaghetti bolognaise which is what I had said I would do for the next indulgence. But thats me all over. Can't wait, can't save things, whether its food or money or whatever!

I didn't eat the whole calorie allowance, I had about 370- 400 calories in my indulgence and I kind of in my head had a bit of space left for wine on Saturday night when I was at a friends hen party. Felt horrid yesterday but got my work out done though I must confess it was reallyl rather half arse.

My total weight loss is now 6kgs which is good. For some reason I'm feeling a bit low about it all, weight loss has slowed down a lot and I'm still rathe wobbly, and that visceral fat Patrick was telling us about..... seems I have more of that than others! thats going to be tough to shift.

I'm off to Italy for a wedding this weekend coming which I am really looking forward to. I love Italy so much, I think just being there will be enough to make me happy that I won't need to scoff pizza and pasta. Also, being in a bikini in the sunshine is a good way to stick to the food plan.

I did my resistance stuff this morning, got to get the skips done when I get home. I'm going through a period of dread with the workouts. I'm not enjoying them as much anymore. I think its just the tired phase and the fact that they are getting harder but I used to really enjoy it but now I jsut feel stressed and short on time and tired....

Onward and upwards. I'm going to have good old catch up on everyone elses blogs during lunch today as I know that will help me get my focus back and feel more positive.
Thanks guys xx


2 comments:

  1. You're doing pretty great all the same. Photos show super progress. I went kind of spontaneous on my indulgence too though I did treat myself to something nicer than Mini Cheddars ;-)

    I think we're all in a bit of a trough emotionally and it feels like things have stopped dead (except for exercises getting harder) - but I think we just have to get our heads down and slog through it. I just hope what Patrick said is true - when the visceral fat goes it will go fast.

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  2. Yup - I think we are all feeling this a bit. I feel like there has been great results so far but there is still so much to do when I look at myself in the mirror.

    I have caught myself nibbling at things that I shouldn't but I haven't done a full binge.

    But as you say Fleur - onward and upward. 6kg is an awesome result.

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