Day 55- Indulgence

Sorry I have been a bit blogless lately. Thanks for my comments, was slightly hibernating this week and my mind hasn't been as focussed on PCP as I would have liked.

When I got the Indulgence email, I turned into a zombie, I don't think I even finished reading the rest of the email I just got up walked to the shops and got a packet of Banston Pickle flavoured Mini Cheddars. My god they were good, I had a small chocolate bar too. I sat in my car and ate them really fast. Then felt dirty and sick! It was all a rather seedy afair. It still felt like it was wrong even though were had permission to do it.

I felt annoyed with myself for just getting it done right away and not saving it for a nice meal of spaghetti bolognaise which is what I had said I would do for the next indulgence. But thats me all over. Can't wait, can't save things, whether its food or money or whatever!

I didn't eat the whole calorie allowance, I had about 370- 400 calories in my indulgence and I kind of in my head had a bit of space left for wine on Saturday night when I was at a friends hen party. Felt horrid yesterday but got my work out done though I must confess it was reallyl rather half arse.

My total weight loss is now 6kgs which is good. For some reason I'm feeling a bit low about it all, weight loss has slowed down a lot and I'm still rathe wobbly, and that visceral fat Patrick was telling us about..... seems I have more of that than others! thats going to be tough to shift.

I'm off to Italy for a wedding this weekend coming which I am really looking forward to. I love Italy so much, I think just being there will be enough to make me happy that I won't need to scoff pizza and pasta. Also, being in a bikini in the sunshine is a good way to stick to the food plan.

I did my resistance stuff this morning, got to get the skips done when I get home. I'm going through a period of dread with the workouts. I'm not enjoying them as much anymore. I think its just the tired phase and the fact that they are getting harder but I used to really enjoy it but now I jsut feel stressed and short on time and tired....

Onward and upwards. I'm going to have good old catch up on everyone elses blogs during lunch today as I know that will help me get my focus back and feel more positive.
Thanks guys xx

Day 48- All sorts

I've been a bit blog quiet for the past few days. Sorry about that. I've had a tough time fitting everything into my life. I'm starting to really not like making plans or having to be anywhere. Any change to my scedule really knocks me off kilter and I find it so hard to accommodate everything on mixed up days. On Friday night we went out of town to visit friends and it messed me right up I missed my workouts on Friday and Saturday. Friday's dinner was a bit messed but other than that I managed to stay on the diet by and large.

Was back at home on Saturday night and Sunday was all good. Had a lazy day but I did manage to get everything done which is great. And I'm back into routine and no more hospital visits this week so i got up and got my skipping done this morning liek usual. Resistance stuff tonight. I'm a bit of a abs addict I think. I think I must have quite strong abs as I always want to do an extra set to really nail the abs (apart from plank- I never want to do extra plank!) Chest stuff is my biggest obsticle at the moment. I still find push ups etc reallly really tough.


This part is still feeling a bit like a slog. But I am getting lots of compliments recently. And I bought a new jacket in size SMALL on satruday!!!! from Large to Small! Thats all I can say, my friend at work complimented the jacket this morning and all I could say was 'THANKS ITS A SIZE SMALL!!!' as you can tell, I am really happy about that.

I've got a fairly quiet week this week so I hope to be able to knuckle down and crack on without too much disruption.

Day 43- Gritty

Patrick has said that we are in the phase of pure GRIT determination, and I completely see what he means. We are far from the nervous exciting shores from whence we came, when we boarded this good ship PCP and not quite near enough our destination that we can see land yet. We're surrounded by water and have to stay afloat! Though I must say, if I could pick a group of people to peddle for our lives for dry land it would be you lot!

It the sort of time where you may be most likely to go off course, with no sight of land, you've travelled so far already and the temptation to just drop anchor and live out there is quite strong! There are 2 key things that are spurring me onwards:
1) eventhough I cna't see where I'm going yet, I can visualise it (in the form of Jessica Biel!) so I have to keep that image fresh and real in my mind, to keep the destination in sight.
2) I haven't brought this up yet but I'm sure others have- There is another ship a few weeks behind us! I don't want it to overtake me. I set off first and damn it I am going to arrive first! its so srtange to read the blogs of brave lads and lasses who have joined the most recent gang. Hello and welcome to you all! I still felt like a beginner and then i reaslised I've already learned so much and thought about my first week and second week and how I've come on from there. That gives me a bit of a nudge too. Not to mention those amazing folk who have recently completed. Their blogs feel like post cards from our destinatinon!

Snacking on egg whites mid morning is bloody strange- there I said it! other than that the diet is OK and whilst tweaked from last week, not a huge change.

Work outs are good. I have managed to entice Will into doing some bits and bobs with me and I think he's got the bug. He totally dominates in the back arms and chest work but I'm the reigning abs champion in our house! BAM. Looking forward to working hard tonight.

I have heard mumblings of supersets...... what are these I wonder!? I'm sure we'll find out soon enough.

Keep up the good work gang.
MEGGA

Day 41- bit of a downer

The aching feeling of every morning is starting to get me down a bit. I'm definately having to battle through a bit at the moment as the motovation is flailing slightly. Nothing serious, but I'm rather feeling the pressure recently. Still, am managing to do my skipping in the morning for the most part which I feel good about, half the time I have to postpone the strength stuff to the evening.

My sister and her stepson visited from New York this weekend and I foun it really hard having a 13 year olf boy in the house and more importanlty his food in the fridge! I've been a control freak about what is allowed in the fridge and suddenly there are pancakes and chocolate milk in my face! Ahhhhhh. I had a chocolate biscuit yesterday in a moment of extrmeme weekness and felt horrible baout it. But gotta move on! I do feel for those Mums and Dad's out there!

Tomorrow I need to be at hospital all day from 7am as my sister is having surgery so I don't know how the other patients will feel about me doign pistol squats in the ward!? Will have to bring a full day of meals with me too which will be a bit annoying and weird but I no longer have any shame about that sort of thing!

Well done all. You are huge inspirations to me, you are all Rock Stars.

Day 38- No morning glory

Ugh, c-a-n-n-o-t get up in the mornings these days. So achy and tired. Keep having to crow bar my workouts into evening slots when I'd rather be doing anything else. Last night my sister arrived my NYC to visit. I took her and her step son to a Mexican place for dinner and watched like a raging food pervert as they ate tacos and echiladas (OK OK so I had a bite but it was tiny and I didn't eat all my carbs at lunch) we got home and pottered around a bit and at 10pm I got my gear on and went skipping. Like a zombie in auto pilot, I was worried if I thought about it too much I'd back out so I had to huncker down and go for it.

Unfortunately, I get the heeby jeeby's when its dark and I'm trying to skip in the alley at the side of my building, so i had to go onto the pavement under a street light to relieve my paranoia!

Still, its going well and I am lapping up the 'You're looking so hot' comments are coming way from time to time! Bought a figure hugging dress yesterday and literally can't wait to wear it.

Still a long way to go but compared to the start I feel like there has been some really positive change already. must not get complacent.

Will get some new pics up this weekend. I know I'm little over due with those.
Keep it up GANG!

I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE

My belt is on the tightest loop and is still too big for me.

AThankyouverymuch

Day 36- 8 Minute Abs

So, as I was away when Patrick sent us the 8 Minute Abs link, I finally got around to watching it last night. Wow, what a special video, that dude is hilarious. I rather enjoyed his banter as I was powering through the workout. I found it tolerable, kept up all the movements all the way through. I hope to make a pretty serious habbit of those.

Feeling hungry for my work outs a bit these days, when I start I like to challenge myself to burn more than yesterday etc. Its cool. Diet is good but still suffering a bit from the slip ups in Ibiza and they have brought back some cravings that I had previously managed to squash which I am finding challenging all over again.

I am excited about the addition of the yoghurt snack! How lame. But struggling to eat all my veg snack before bed. There is not enough time in the day!

When I get home tonight, I am going to make two portions of Lemon and tarragon chicken and then get into bed with Jack Bauer (on my ipad) and have an early night. Blissful night off. And my cleaner is coming today so the flat will be spotless. Divine.

Day 34- Ibiza Rocks

Holy Moly that was a tough weekend. I was away for 3 days in Ibiza for my best mate's hen weekend. It was hilarious fun and amazing. I was really good the first day we were there. Did all my workout and ate to the plan. Saturday was different. I stuck to the plan for much of the day but had a medium bowl of pasta for dinner with the group which I felt a bit bad about. Its amazing how much I am not used to eating that quantity and type of food anymore. Anything made with white flour now just makes me feel a bit gross and really bloated. I've really gone off it.

I had champagne and a few cocktails on saturday and they hit me quite hard but i was so much more restrained that I ever would have been before. And we danced until 7am so I feel like I must have burned a lot of calories!!

Felt confident in my bikini for the first time in YEARS and I got some lovely comments from friends who said they can see the differece already and TO KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, which is what I must do!

I am so tired today. But must do my workout when I get home.