Day 28- Keep your mouth busy

I enjoyed this week's questions video. I'm taking two key points away with me this week. 1) Mindfulness of cravings and owning them. They are just chemical messages being sent round the body. Usually I think, by force of habbit or by emotional recall. The feeling of over-ruling those cravings is immense. OK, so I'm still learning how to do it but the times that I have done it have felt like huge victories more satisfying than sticking my face in a chocolate cake.

2) Keep yuor mouth busy! Love this. So far have been drinking loads of water and tea and chewing loads of chewing gum and its really helping. Obviously there are plenty of other oral activities to indulge in but none are decent enough to partake in during regular snack times:

Really looking forward to new diets and work outs. Used to fell scared about those now I feel excited! I'm being PCP'd

Have a good last day of week 4! Can't believe how fast its flying by.

Day 27- Champagne and potatoes

I, Like Richard, accidentally had my indulgence ahead of schedule. I was at wedding in south west France over the weekend. It was a flying visit and I managed to keep mostly to the schedule.

Friday was fine, was at work in the day, did my work out at the start of the day had my food all planned out. legged it from the office to Heathrow and put my chicken breast and chopped carrotts through the security scanner before eating them in the lounge. Felt like a twat but you've gotta' do what you've gotta' do!

Didn't arrive at the challets I was staying at (where my boyfriend and some of his friends had been having a holiday pre-wedding) until 1.30am. Was greeted by two very drunk boys. Went to bed and woke up late but feeling fresh (unlike everyone else!) I didn't know the people we were staying with very well so felt a bit self concious marching out to greet everyone in the morning wearing a sports bra and wrilding a skipping rope but did it anywy!. Did my skips and legs and was a bit sloppy on the arms and abs. had time to eat an egg and the rest of my carrotts (didn't eat as much as I should have, or at the right times on Sat but had limited resources!)

Got ready for the wedding. It was ROASTING. the service was wonderful but outside so we were all a bit soggy by the time it came to the champagne reception. So this was my indulgence. I had 2 glasses of champagne and a glass of beer much later on. It was lovely but I found I had a headache almost instantly. I danced a lot instead of stading around feeling fidgitty and wanting to drink. I think this was a great solution, kept active and moving for most of the night and didn't drink too much! The meal was pretty PCP friendly I had two thin slices of veal which wasn't over salted of covered in sauce or anything. I had a big helping of green beans and the naughty bit, was that I had some potatoes

Did a really half arse work out on Sunday. Feel terrible about it. It was because I had had those drinks and it was 40 degress C on Sunday I could hardly move!

Back really late last night so didn't do morning workout today but will do it tonight WITH VIGOR! and back to morning routine tomorrow.

I wish I had a bit mroe control over my indulgence and had it on my terms more. But I have learned that those booze cravings are much easier to manage than I had thought. I feel better without it and I feel emotionally rubbish if I sabotage my work out/ food regeme for the sake of a drink or two. I do think this has helped me conquer the cravings and be more in control of them. But I really wanted a packed of malteasers for my indulgence :( I'll have to hope we get another indulgence soonish.

I've got a hen weekend this weekend coming, on a hot european island (can't say where as the hen reads this sometimes) its going to be another challenge. But I'll be with all my best friends and they are all incredibly supportive and will help me make sure I make the time to work out and eat right. Following what Patrick said in his recent emails. I am very blessed in this way. I feel  lilke I have been proven right (yet again) that my best friends are fucking amazing! Their support means the world to me, and Will who has been amazing (if a little Nizi-ish!)

Looking forward to the new routines and diets, we'll see what they will be tomorrow!

Day 24- On va en France

Very amused by the chat on the question threads today. Boys proudly advertising their solution to trouble sleeping (frankly with the skipping cramps I don't know how they do it!) Girls are having more confidential discussions...we are a flurry of chat and banter all of a sudden. Very enjoyable indeed.

Off to France for a wedding this weekend. Haven't a clue how I'm giong to make this work. Provintial France is not known for its convenience shopping. Shops are usually open for about 2 hours a day when the town's folk aren't sleeping, eating cheese, examaining tourists with distain, drinking wine by the bucket or sleeping so Frog knows how I'm going to get the supplies I need for my meals. I imagine the wedding dinner will be something I can adapt and off load all the extras onto Will's plate. I will have to practice EXTREME wine-dodging this weekend. Its goig to hurt me a lot but hopefully there will enough embarrassing relatives present dancing like lunatics to amuse me sufficiently.

Having taken the mick out the lads, I must confess I have not been sleeping that well this week either. Hopefully the weekend will help me catch up.

Bought some awesome new spoprts kit yesterday, my sweat pants were falling off me on Wednesday when I was skipping- an excellent sign! Although mooning your neighbours before noon I believe is considered quite uncouth. Hopefully there will not be a repeat performance of that now.

Week 3 pic is up. A bit shite, had to take myself.

Have a good weekend all.
Au revoir! x

Day 23

Becasue who in their right mind would do more than 999 skips!?

Day 22- up a gear

The diet has been dialed down a bit in quantity and the work out has been dialed up. I see where this is going but have been told by Patrick to stop looking ahead and reading plot spoilers from those ahead of us in the program. Thats probably very wise but I'm so curious!

I'm already starting to feel like we're in the thick of it a bit now. Did my 100 squats and my 1020 skips this morning but will have to do the resistance stuff tonight as didn't have time this morning before an early work start. I'm rather tired today but feel like my resolve is a lot stronger.

Those skipping cramps are really messing up my skipping vibes! the bottoms of my shins and feet cramp up and wrists/ arms (my boyfriend delicately refer to this now as wankers cramp) I have to have 10 second breaks every 100 skips or so which is really frustrating me as its slowing me down. But Patrick says to persevere so persevere I will! I look forward to those cramps disolving.

Enjoying Karim's mix's- thanks Karim.

PS

Just watched Patrick's video and was really pleased to hear the reassurance that weight isn't that important. Its a really hard concept to get my head around though. I'm sure some other people will find that adjustment in thinking hard to accept initially. But ultimatley I'm sure its rather liberating!

Remember the dresses I decided not to get altered, and decided to jsut keep as they are and have faith that they will fit soon enough. One of them does already. (The other one is still a little way off mind you!) I guess that is the sort of thing to look out for.......